Here are a few things to stare at.
|The Fallen shall rise up from the ashes.|
This ( believe it or not ) is my most favorite photo-manipulation I have ever done...so far. There was a lot I learned about photo-manipulations at the time I did this one and there is a lot I am still discovering. Not all of my photo-manipulations get posted...less is more as they say. So until I create one that outdoes all of my photo-manips., I will keep this one on my main page.
Thank you for looking. ^_^
Girl in the cornerThe girl in the corneremolifeisright
Constantly trying to end her pain,
End it, end it now.
The girl in the corner,
Sees the little sharp blade,
Longing to feel,
Its stinging caress on her wrist.
The girl in the corner,
Slits like there is nothing else,
No one else.
She slowly starts to fade away,
As no one cares,
About the girl in the corner.
Coming out of her veins,
As people laugh,
Like they just won a game.
Now I realize,
That poor girl in the corner was me,
Hoping for an alternative,
To this brutal life
lets play pretendI am a lion, brave and strong,UOkaiThere
I am your defence, for when others see you wrong.
I am a warrior, bold and alert
but I am still a person, and a person
can still hurt.
Trapped in an icy prison
Hard and fast
No liquid water
Icicles pierce flesh
Snow crushes all
A slow death
All You AreWhen I told you maybe, I meant yes.StepBackAndBreathe
When I gave in to your touch, I never wanted to leave.
When I held you in my arms as you cried, I believed you.
Now you will never hear me say maybe again.
You will never touch me as long as I am breathing.
You will never cry like you did.
And by God you will never be believed.
You will never be trusted.
You baby, will be nothing more.
Nothing more than the lost CDs.
Nothing more than a shitty birthday present.
Nothing more than a seashell with a hidden word.
You my darling, my unspoken 'I love you,'
will be nothing more than a worthless piece of shit.
You, you will be nothing.
Nothing but the memory stuck to the bottom of my shoe,
scraped across the ground with the rest of the trash.
Where. You. Belong.
In the beginning of 2013 I started out with a better and clearer view in my life. I didn’t know for sure if pursuing a degree in film & animation would turn out being a wise decision, luckily it was. That being said, I have learned a lot and I know that I still have a lot more to learn. I’m extremely happy that I made it through my first year in college!
My art is starting to improve and change a little, and for the better in my opinion. Making sense of my artwork was clear before, but now there is much more clarity to be found in it, and I definitely needed that. I must say that this has yet to change my random artistic nature, so there will always be those moments of uncertainty in my artwork from time to time.
Fan art, is this still relevant to me? YES! I plan to produce some work that is totally based on some obscure movies and TV series. What exactly? I haven’t narrowed it down yet, but it’s good to have a goal and see it through that much I can say. I’ll try a few ideas out and hopefully with the right feedback I’ll continue creating the fan art.
How about my personal life? It’s going much better than it was a year ago. A made a friend, I fell in love with her, and we are still together. Love is a necessity for most people in one form or another, just as long as it’s a healthy one that is of course a must! Money is still a long lost friend to me and sometimes it’s something I don’t necessarily miss, but it’s nice to have it when the need for it presents itself.
How about some news on the direction my photography is taking? Okay, I’ll try to explain myself as best as I can. My macro photography is what I got extremely addicted to shooting, but sometimes I feel like there’s so much more that I haven’t tried to capture/portray with my photography. Conceptual photography and still life photography is still a passion of mine that I’ve put on the back burner for too long, mostly because of school, homework (also school related), and because I wanted to take some time to study many photography concepts. The photographer I see my as is a story teller. I want my photography to break boundaries, broaden people’s minds, and to make the viewer question how the imagery affects them, no matter how simple or complicated the subject.
I think, hmm… yeah, this is pretty much the gist of it all I suppose. I wish I had something profound to say as I attempt to bring this journal to a close, but I guess maybe another time.
On second thought, I think I have one last closing word to add.
Don’t take what people say too personal, they may or may not mean what they say to you, and if they do mean it, well, at least you know for sure what they really think of you. …but that’s just my opinion.
Get off your ass and go outside!!! ...please.