Experience is Everything and NothingEverything that has happened or will happen was meant to happen;However nothing was meant to last forever, even if it was intended to.So live life like you meant to do everything that you did do or intend to do.And don't worry if you or anyone else doesn't understand why everything happened.Just be thankful that you lived long enough to experience it all.
Let Go Hold OnEverything that matters or should matter let it goEvery person that ever loved you or will love you let them goEvery dream or wish you've ever had let them all goEvery wrong you never corrected just let goEvery hurt you ever felt or will know let them goEvery joy you may bring to others that brought joy to you let them all
goGiving up is easyBut holding onto all that is dear to you or that you'll ever care forIs what sets us apart from those that just give up and those that refuse to walk away
All of These ChangesIt was a big day and a little day.Something's didn't really change at all,and something's changed very little,and something's changed in a really big way...but all of these changesare for right now temporary until things change again.To put it any simpler than this, changes were madeand changes for right now were made...but to just call them changes would be best then tocall them good or bad changes at all.I suppose that there's many positive ways at looking at today,but for right now the best thing that could be said about today is thatit's over and tomorrow looks much more hopeful than today had managed to be.
Master The ImpossibleMaster The ImpossiblePay complete attention to nothingand pay no attention to everything.And if you can do both at the same time,then you've managed to master the impossible.
Not Always, But....Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar....and sometimes a taco is just a taco.
Do You kNOwLearn more for meLove more for youThis whole life's the best thing you and I will doTake time to laughAnd a little time to cryFor in the end my dear it's only you and II know we'll make memories that one day will fade awayBut for now and especially today don't go turning grey
no not yetIf the world we know came to a sudden stopAnd we were standing at the top
Of it allI promise you my dear out of love I'll never fall
no not once
at least as I can tellAs the time goes by and we say goodbye we'll shed some tearsBecause were only human after all so I guess that means
we know how to express our emotionsDon't weDon't we my dearI love to hear you say you love meI love to know your voiceI know I'd love to be your one and only choice
doesn't that sound fair enoughI called your blushing bluffI know I've got the stuffTo be that one and only loveYes oh yes
that one and onlyIf only you knewThat I existDid you knowDo you knowI don't
skinny lovegave into skinny lovesneaking shy smilestrying his best not tokiss her wine-stained lips…& myhow she makes you happygive her more to drinkhow she loves her rum & cokeand she’d really like to dancewhile he’s never soberfrom her sweet lovestill in skinny lovewaiting to hold hertrying not tolook into her eyesthey’re too lovely…& myoh how you make her smilejust a little more to drinkalways has rum & coke to sparenever unsoberfrom her sweet, sweetskinny love.
she knows her paper cuts by name.Rose bloodon her tonguereminds her of yesterday's.Lonely bones.A heart's hoarded secrets,love me pretties, &scarlet letter dreams.Butdo these boys knowof the bitter winterchurning,like a blizzardin her veins?The sharp edgesof half-emptykisses,or the crisscrossfoldingof origami limbs?Her eyes,as deep &unfeelingas the ocean;
NaPoWriMo: Day 8I was toldto slice through the thickestof scar tissue this evening.Let all my inner demonsfall to the floor& write them outin my own black blood.It’s not red anymore,even though needles& the bruiseslaid out like war-landson my armssay otherwise.I don’t think it ever was,honestly.Therapeutic,they said.My mind is a messof free versed insecurities,cat’s eye marbles,& untamed forest fires-but,I still don’t have the nerveto slice open my skin& bleed for her.
the heart of a quiet girlbrown skin matches such raven hair& so it hangs frail like autumn leavesshe drips sorrow holdingviolet felt cosmos in her eyescarries herself so stiff& some wonder why she is so quiet(for that is her strongest sound)
sunflowers.they will see her and they will say,"she was loved, but now no longer.dry earthand paper-pressed sunflowers,she is the vision of a dead summer."
NaPoWriMo: Day 2sometimes,i have thissudden urge to cutmy hair.most of the time,i just wish I were anythingother than me.a rocket ship, a bird-the sweet flavored smokeI promised my girlfriendthese briar patch lungswould not in.hale.instead,i have fallen in lovewith the strangest of things-eyes that intimidategodless boys.the way my scarsplay hide and seekwith her hands. -the love lettersthat start and endwith kissespressed against limbs.i make promisesi know i can not keep.but if i were a liari would say i was tiredof writing to the stars.
this aftershave smells like uraniumI don't want to die without leaving a piss-stain on the planet, except the world is a skeleton, and everything already stinks of ammonia. An old woman once told me what it was like to climb trees, how she'd hook her legs around the branches and swing and watch birds fly upside-down above clouds coloured white instead of green. We don't get much of those any more. Trees. Birds. Old women. Wise bastards with something better to talk about than how we should live our lives. Eat your veg. Smile. Brush your fucking teeth. Nah, this old chick with her gnarled fingers and her crumpled smile and her reading glasses with the crooked frame, she talked about seagulls and conkers and sitting on the sides of little streams with her toes in the water, catching frogs and keeping them in jars and feeling bad because they missed the winding river. About how to grow real shit from real seeds in real earth that smelled like earth... that smelled like rotting leaves and seedlings and dew and not formaldeh
otitis externaThere is an oceanbeneathmy veinspumping salt watertomy brainI'm just curling and crashingwiththe wavesbut I can't stop the erosionfrom taking my name
Just onceI once felt the hatred,I once heard the lies,I once felt the burden,Of my character's demise,I once sat there stunned,I once sat there cold,I once sat there watching,My very life become old,And then...I once saw the world,I once opened my eyes,I once told myself,That it'd be alright,I once was wrong,I once came home,I once again had a world,That wouldn't leave me alone,And then in retrospect...I once was happy,I once truly smiled,I once heard my laughter,Now it's been a while,I once felt sadness,I once had trauma within,I once found a fear which,Traumatised my very skin,But...I once went online,I once found some friends,I once had proper friendships,Severed only at our ends,I once found people,I once had a will,I once had friends,For me to protect... until...I once met my end,I once fell asleep,I once lived it fully,Before sleeping so deep,Just once will I feel this,Just once from above,Just once
pragmaticthat falling star will burn a holeright through your pocketand then where will you be?foolish patchwork princeburnt fingers and blistered thumbno closer to your dreamsno farther from your nightmares
DiscardedI will hideFrom the starsWhere the lightHas bled.Dead dayDead nightWould you guideMy blind eyes?I realizedThat this worldWill corruptThe pure lives.We all knowHow this will endI want to escape.I want redemptionI want deathThe human raceMust be erased.LiesThey brought liesAnd sicknessTo these lands.They love receiveBut never giveTo the homelessDying on the street.I hate themThey have to dieI will purgeThis place.(5/8/14)
SolutionSuicide-A permanent solutionTo a temporary problem
Dinner In a TombShe always did love pomegranates.She didn't know I'd poisoned them, when I left them on the table when she came to retrieve her belongings. She didn't know I'd already found a new place, that I'd set her a trap, a plan to bring her here, down, down into the catacombs that are now my kingdom.She stares at me now, dark circles beneath wide, empty eyes. I offer her another seed."Come now, my dear. Do have something to eat. You look deathly pale." I flash her a grin she ignores.I butter bread and place it in her cold hand. "I've arranged this feast, just for the two of us, and you haven't even the good graces to eat it?" Her blue lips offer no excuses for her rudeness.The bread slips from her hand. I retrieve it, curl her fingers around the crusty edge. "Try again, darling. You'll get the hang of it."I brush golden curls back from her bloodless face."I told you you'd never escape me. My hell is your hell, my love."
only.Times like these joy seems so simple to me, just the thought of you lights my way.It is just enough to know you are there for me.When ever i may need you.Though i will always need you..You may not know it my dearbut you take my breath away with every little thing you do.From a simple look.To the simplest touch..It all means so much.you may never understand just how much you really affect me.All the words i could think of would not be enough to explain how i feel,I strive to be amazing in every possible way just for you.I know i would be lost without you, so please don't go anytime soon.I want to love you for aslong as you can stand me.You are my one and only.
DrowningI slowly dip my toesAnd test the flowing water,Little did I knowMy heart was up for slaughter.Rushing in,It coats my skin,I feel the pressure on my chest.A hug to take the life from me,Now I know it's for the best.Come through my mouthAnd wash my soulNo one ever has to know.A longing that I feel so strong,A longing that should feel so wrong.
Bacon and EggsBacon and EggsIf I should ever live to seeThe end of the world by one hundred and threeAnd know the sound that it makesWhen it breaksI hope it sounds like bacon and eggs.
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