Today and yesterday was just awful. The truth I learned within these two days, I already had a gut feeling about, but to know for sure, by word of mouth. ... Those words, that truth ... it really hurt.
Having people that are very close to me (or at least I thought they were) tell me indirectly how my life isn't as important as theirs is, it was as though my heart was cut out, thrown to the wolves, crapped on, flushed down the toilet, and finally reinserted. It was better when they lied to me, learning the truth was like being diagnosed with a fatal incurable disease, a disease that would only allow me six months to live or less.
I would have chosen having six months to live over learning the truth that was made known to me yesterday and today. My best revenge in this case is to piss these people off by living and living out my life's dream and accomplish my personal goals that matter to nobody else but me.