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I'm going to be a lot less active for awhile. As in, inactive for awhile. ...sadly.
I feel as though there is an unyielding and overwhelming pressure on me to do more than I have done so far.
I don't feel like the same artist/person that I once was. I feel as though the fire inside of me is beginning to wane.
I'm growing tired of trying to face the people around me. I have friends, very close friends to keep me company and keep my spirits up. ...luckily.

I don't need a pity party, but I thought I should explain to my friends and my fans/watchers that I won't be or I most likely won't be creating some of the same stuff that they know me for. And if anyone is left to watch me, follow me, or encourage me through compliments, faves, and special features. I will be grateful for all of their kindness and kind gestures.

When I return, and I will one day. I will explain, and update my journal in full detail. But I will try not to be too wordy or boring. ...no guarantees. LOL
I hope whoever enjoys reading this journal entry (as it seems some few do). I hope everyone that cares to know, and now knows, that they will understand.

Peace, Love, and Good Fortune to All.





 

In the beginning of 2013 I started out with a better and clearer view in my life. I didn’t know for sure if pursuing a degree in film & animation would turn out being a wise decision, luckily it was. That being said, I have learned a lot and I know that I still have a lot more to learn. I’m extremely happy that I made it through my first year in college!

My art is starting to improve and change a little, and for the better in my opinion. Making sense of my artwork was clear before, but now there is much more clarity to be found in it, and I definitely needed that.  I must say that this has yet to change my random artistic nature, so there will always be those moments of uncertainty in my artwork from time to time.

Fan art, is this still relevant to me? YES! I plan to produce some work that is totally based on some obscure movies and TV series. What exactly?  I haven’t narrowed it down yet, but it’s good to have a goal and see it through that much I can say. I’ll try a few ideas out and hopefully with the right feedback I’ll continue creating the fan art.

How about my personal life? It’s going much better than it was a year ago. A made a friend, I fell in love with her, and we are still together. Love is a necessity for most people in one form or another, just as long as it’s a healthy one that is of course a must! Money is still a long lost friend to me and sometimes it’s something I don’t necessarily miss, but it’s nice to have it when the need for it presents itself.

How about some news on the direction my photography is taking? Okay, I’ll try to explain myself as best as I can. My macro photography is what I got extremely addicted to shooting, but sometimes I feel like there’s so much more that I haven’t tried to capture/portray with my photography. Conceptual photography and still life photography is still a passion of mine that I’ve put on the back burner for too long, mostly because of school, homework (also school related), and because I wanted to take some time to study many photography concepts. The photographer I see my as is a story teller. I want my photography to break boundaries, broaden people’s minds, and to make the viewer question how the imagery affects them, no matter how simple or complicated the subject.

I think, hmm… yeah, this is pretty much the gist of it all I suppose. I wish I had something profound to say as I attempt to bring this journal to a close, but I guess maybe another time.

 

On second thought, I think I have one last closing word to add.

Don’t take what people say too personal, they may or may not mean what they say to you, and if they do mean it, well, at least you know for sure what they really think of you. …but that’s just my opinion.

^{Get off your ass and go outside!!! ...please.}

Where has the time gone? No really! Where?

I've been sooo lazy updating this journal, but I have a good excuse—I guess.
School, homework, photography, drawing, learning animation?
Yep.
I'm busy. How busy? Busy enough. . . I'll just leave it at that.
I hope all my Watchers, friends, fans, and simply curious viewers, are enjoying the work I've been sharing. It's all soooooo random still, and I'm finally feeling okay with being that randomly inconsistent artist on dA (and eventually I'll get around to creating a gorilla-ink facebook account, and maybe a few other accounts that will feature my work). Some sites will have specific work that I'm creating currently, with the help of what I'm learning while majoring in media arts & animation. Little by little my artist's life is starting to look up. My personal life? Well, it's getting there slowly but surely one step (baby step) at a time. Life isn't a race, even though it feels like it is at times but really it's more like a pogo stick. Sometimes you bounce, sometimes you fall and shatter your hopes, and sometimes (if or when you get lucky) you bounce the bejesus out of that pogo stick until you're so high you have to wonder if you're flying for real and never going to hit bottom ever again. Hopefully I'll stay up and never come down.

What's in store for 2013? Anything and maybe everything, that's how I see it, you must live life with the most positive outlook you can imagine, because anything else just won't do.
So, as I said before, expect to see all kinds of black and white photos, conceptual photos, still life photos, a ridiculous amount of those addictive water droplet macro photos, and yes a ton (a shit-load) of self-portraits and many other photos of friends and random portraits of strangers, because strangers love it when some other stranger takes a candid or planned picture of them. Expect to see more Gir fan art- because I still love to draw that crazy SIR/Gir. Expect to see more of Kobolt (my imp, that's a devil in the making). Expect to see some animation- eventually and of many types and styles, some too cute or too funny to resist, because laughter is the best medicine still. Also expect to see more writing, short-stories, poems, lyrics, philosophies on life and how I go about living life with these philosophical views of mine.  
I hope ALL of you have the greatest day, week, month, year, and 100+ years. (Hey, it could happen!)

TAKE CARE!
-Tim (aka gorilla-ink) Who else?

and come to think of it ... ... ... ... I think they still are.

_{I know that it hasn't been a full week or seven days yet since my last posting, however I finally had the time and the energy that was needed to start shooting somethings different for a change.
I will still post my well known water droplet macros from time to time and still life shots too, but I must move into other areas of photography that I had put off or avoided because I felt so limited by my camera. And I still have much more writing to share from long ago (poems, super short stories, and some philosophical thoughts too) and some that are new or will be as soon as I get to writing.
...Well that and there's not so many fans of black and white photos as some might hope to think there are.
Not all of my newer photos will be black and white but there will be more portraits of other people and more self portraits too.
I'm not a young shirtless muscular man or whatever else you may desire to see so I know I won't knock your socks off.
But just enjoy my work if you can...thank you.}

Thanks to recent unnerving dissatisfaction (my own dissatisfaction mind you),
I'm not posting anything else for 1 week.

But when I finally do post something new, I hope to have satisfied the worst critique to have ever lived...ME.
I will still fave other artist works, and I will still reply to any comments on my other posted works.
And I will answer any notes as often as I can, I'm not totally gone from dA, instead I'm just not posting anything until
I am satisfied with my results in some new project ideas I had been needing to attempt but never dared to because
of my camera and it's ridiculous limitations...that and many other reasons I just don't have the time to go into.


Take Care Now